Well it's been a while. I promised myself when I started this blog that I would post everyday but I've been going through a lot. I've been going to my psychiatrist and counselor and I've been diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder. I don't know a lot about it yet...it's hard to concentrate on anything right now. I'm trying to research it and I've been doing my cognitive therapy. I don't know what else to say about it right now. My counselor did a test to determine what disorder if any I had and decided it was the bipolar 2. Like I said I'm still very confused and don't know much about it and when you hear bipolar you think oh I'm crazy then! I go to my psychiatrist again on the 6th of next month and hopefully she can make some things more clear to me. I don't feel like doing much but being at home in the peace and quite. Some days I feel turned inside out and don't know what to do with myself. Hopefully a remedy will be made for me soon!
I also woke to the news that my cousin's girlfriend supposedly shot herself in the forehead at 2am yesterday morning and he didn't report it until around 9am this morning! She also had a big gash in her back. She was still alive but in a coma and he had put her in the bathtub to try and wake her up. He claims she had sit up and watched tv with him last night and was ok when she went to bed...really with a gunshot wound in her forehead? She is in surgery right now having the bullet removed...if it can be and they don't know if she is going to live are not!! He and his mother claim they didn't call 911 because their cell phones had been turned off and she begged them not to call because she would have refused treatment anyways. Oh and then this morning they remembered you can still call 911 on a deactivated cell phone. They have neighbors all around them and they have a car. Why not go to your neighbor or put her in the car and take her to the hospital regardless if she said she didn't want to? I would have taken someone to the hospital if they accidently grazed their toe with a bullet!!!!!!! I just don't think 2+2 add up to 1 on this situation. Just Saturday night he had been at my sister's house drunk or doped up and was acting so strangely she went to her bedroom and locked herself inside the door. He went outside with her husband and ended up pulling a knife on a friend of ours and telling everyone he was going to kill them. He also has been hiding in the woods in front of my sister's house watching every thing they do. He yells out the window at his mother's house that just wait they are all gonna be dead. He has ruined his brain with all the drugs and alcohol he does. He has had other girlfriends and a wife in the past that he has shot at and they didn't press charges on him so the police didn't do anything to him because the women wouldn't cooperate with the law. I don't believe she shot herself!! I think he did and I hope the truth comes out and he rots in jail for this if he did do it!!! If he didn't I still think he should still serve time for not getting her help sooner!!!
Well I guess that's all on this subject for now and hopefully some light will be shed on my disorder for me soon. I know some of my reader must be thinking wow what a crazy family you got there woman...I really hope not. If anyone can help me understand my disorder please comment and tell me about it please!!!!
